Change or Not

Sometimes, I feel so upset. I usually ask a question in my mind. Why do I always have to face the bad thing? Do I make something bad to them? So, the love that I pay to my family will lessen and have some suppositions as to them as time goes by. Although I really do not want to see the change.If I were not alive, the situation would be better. If I did not belong "your" home, they could have a better life. I really don't like to do the thing that most people hate or dislike. But, the worst thing is that they always do that to me.I have to admit that my EQ is not good. I always can't handle my emotion, and even have moodiness. As a result, the bad thing will become the worst thing. And, the thing I hate most is they always ask me to do things without appreciation. They take it for granted. Most of time, fair and unfair is my point of me. Whenever I meet the unfair things, I can't endure. Even though they say that the words are not the meanings. And I can't put up with that they don't have any regrets to me after they break my heart. In the short, I hope that I will become a person who always can hide her real feelings and show the good side. After all, people can't change everyone, but we can change ourselves.

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